Steve Chop- 3 time Ironman, Type 1 Diabetic, Triabetes Team Member

What has been Happening- Getting back on my Horse (or Bike)

2010-10-21T12:38:00.000-07:00

As I noted before, I am fat and happy. Over the past 2 years since Ironman Wisconsin, I have had a rough go of it. First, my Dad passing really threw me in a tailspin that I felt was overcome with finishing Ironman Rhode Island 70.3 (very slowly I may add), but have dealt with the death of Denise's Mom as she succumbed to Pancreatic Cancer. What little light seemed to seep in was fellows like those in this picture (The 1st Place Fall Ball Minor League Sykesville Yankees). As I reengaged in non-Ironman life, I had the pleasure of coaching a number of teams, more specifically my son's baseball and daughter's softball teams. That has been a blast and a welcomed escape from the drudgery of the past 2 years. I have spent a professional career trying to help disadvantaged youngsters as a therapist and administrator, being a coach is quite a fulfilling role. Seeing my boys and young ladies, as my daughter is now 13, get a hit during a game and the look on their faces is priceless! My take-away lesson is to begin re-engaging in my true passions of triathlon, cycling and running. As I reemerge, I hope to update my blog to chronicle the journey back to life!

Fat and Happy

2010-07-22T10:48:00.000-07:00

Well semi-retirement is nice and relaxed! Been fat and happy for a while and getting the itch to ride, run and even swim. Been doing some riding, very minimal mileage, but it is nice to get out even in the blistering heat. I am getting on the P90X bandwagon (again) modified until November, when I will do the full program as my off-season or return-to-racing preparation for next summer. What has happened since my last entry is quite astounding. Without the pressures of race preparation and relaxed nature of working out 3 to 4 times per week, I am finding that some "fun" is beginning to enter back into exercise. I also visited the Endo and my A1C is coming back into line (7.3 sown from 8.3) Still a YIKES, but moving in the right direction! Finally, as I continue in my semi-retirement, I will be passing along my best wishes to those who are passing me on the road as the prep for their upcoming races.

Semi-Retired

2010-07-06T09:20:00.000-07:00

Well it is time to day good-bye to racing for now. Over the past 2 seasons, I haven't been able to muster the strength and motivation to train seriously for a race and I decided to retire from competitive racing for the time being. As I enter into semi-retirement, I am committed to making a comeback in the future. I will be updating this blog from time to time just to waste some of my new found free time.....

Kickin it Out

2010-03-16T10:58:00.000-07:00

Moving slowly with base training and working it out. I have 8 more pounds to lose to get at a respectable racing weight and sore muscles to prove that it is hard to start back up after a year of minimal working out. I finally got outside and ran the other day and remembered how nice it is to be able to do this stuff. I am fortunate. During the past 2 weeks, kickin the base has been my focus and will be for a few more weeks/ months. My 2010 racing season will be sort of a comeback season and looking forward to see what is possible. What I do recall from my Triabetes experience is that anything is possible. Looking forward to more sore muscles, exhaustion and the exhilaration of finishing a race. More on that later!

It Has Been A LONG time

2010-02-12T13:09:00.000-08:00

I found my way back. I have been in a fog since April when I lost my Dad to diabetes complications and found myself kicked in the gut again after hear about Michelle's son. This disease sucks, yet I go back to the Triabetes days and revisit the life that the group inspired, I get pumped to work harder at control and limiting the potential complications. But in the end, we never know. Since my 09 season was more a less a wash, I am not sure what 10 brings. I know that my base training is at the forefront of my efforts now and to get back to my previous levels of performance, I am changing my approach to 10. Have fun first, and put in the base miles second.

I often ponder what lies ahead for me. I wonder how much longer can I train and race. I often think about a 4th Ironman finish, another Sprint or OLY race. Can I go faster despite being a year older. How much more can I give to triathlon. But in the end, we never know what is in the future, I realize I can only control today...and today, I am committed to controlling by blood sugar! Maybe, just maybe I can hold off the Grim Reaper a little bit longer. Who knows.

Racing Again!

2009-06-26T07:46:00.000-07:00

After some time to reflect and recompose myself, and with Denise racing as well, we completed the Marathon Sports (St. Andrews Sprint Tri) Tri. Although not my best time at this race, I raced it 5 time before, I was happy to be in the water, on the road, and in the muddy woods competing. As I reflected on this with Coach Dave, and noted that I transformed my memories of my Dad which have brought me to an abysmal place to motivation to compete! I was extremely happy to be racing again and will compete in a limited fashion the remainder of the season.

Tour of South Carroll

2009-05-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

I did my first club/group race with limited participation though this past weekend. Finished a grueling 35 mile road race and 15 mile time trial on familiar roads. I was great wearing the Triabetes colors this weekend and hammering down despite my lack of consistent training. I felt good once the inital pain wore off and was happy to be on the road again. My group is planning a longer stage race this season taking about 150-200 mile across my home county and I hope that in September my form comes back while my weight goes down. Surprisingly my blood sugar reamined in acceptable 120-200 range and felt a difference using the Dexcom Seven Plus system to monitor.

The Bike....The Ride....

2009-04-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

After suffering through the worst 2 weeks of my life, I decided the Saturday after my Dad passed away that I was ready to move forward. Through my grieving, I found solace in an old friend- exercise. I re-started my workouts and struggled through them with pain and joy. Nothing like a long bike ride to heal the soul. I have been playing phone tag with Coach Dave, but his emails and workouts have provided comfort in a unhappy time. Yesterday was a beautiful day and before other of life's obligations took over I went out on a bike ride with Bri. She is sporting a new Fuji Road Bike. She is so proud of her new ride! The joy I saw in her face when she heard she was riding 25 mph as we were flying down a short stretch made enduring the pain and loss we have suffered manageable and even felt happy in the moment. I love going to the bike shop in early Spring as parents are bringing their kids in for that new bike. The excitement and joy kids get is contagious. I think I am going to stop at the bike shop on my way home to catch some of that happiness!

My Tribute to My Dad

2009-04-01T09:50:00.001-07:00

As a pretty closed lip person, I have been supporting my Dad in his fight with a number of illnesses, including diabetes, over the past 2 years. He passed away suddenly on Monday. He was a diabetic for 34 years struggling with control of his brittle diabetes while making a life for me, my Mom, and my family. I saw first hand the devastation this disease can take on a persons life and renewed my fight to find a cure so my children and their children don't have to suffer as my Dad did. As his son, I witnessed and learned many lessons from my Dad. He taught me the lessons of love and loyalty. Growing up he drove me to the corners of this country while I wrestled. He would be in my corner win or lose, with him helping me learn from my losses. One of my fondest memories was in 1987 at the Sr. Greco-Roman Nationals when the break between periods he said as I was losing 7-2, "I didn't travel half way across this country to see you get your ass kicked in the first round." He flipped the switch and I won the bout 18-7 and went on to win my first of 2 National Championships. The lesson of loyalty was his commitment to his family and friends. He worked for 20+ years for a company who valued my Dad, and he repaid in service. My Dad taught me the value of hard work and giving your best effort in all circumstances, a value which I wish I could demonstrate half as well as him. Over the years, I had the opportunity to thank him on occasion, yet I wish I could have thanked him one more time. I loved my Dad, but I wish I could have told him one more time. I wish for more time with him, but I guess it would never be enough!

The 09 Season

2009-03-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

With the first race 12 days away, I am excited to begin this years campaign. As I reflect on years past, this one is like the 04 and 06 season. Slow to start, motivation issues, but the excitement of starting the season still there. I am just happy that my body continues to allow me to prepare for the starting line.

Simply Stu Worldwide Triathlon

2009-02-19T10:37:00.000-08:00

With over 1000 entries worldwide, the Chop family will be participating in this remarkable event. It will be a blast as Bri, Tommy and Me balze a trail indoors being participants. Stu has a missiojn of spreading the benefits of triathlon and a triathlon lifestyle around the world and we are happy to be part of his vision.

Here we Go Steelers Here we Go and Coach Dave

2009-01-30T10:41:00.000-08:00

As a lifelong Steeler fan, I am excited about this weekend. A team who sticks to the plan and through thick and thin stays the course. In my lifetime, I have only know of 3 Steeler Head Coaches, while many teams have had as many in the past 5 years. The take home lesson is that consistency and keeping one's goals in focus provides a pathway for success. Ironman racing is similar. It is easy to be persuaded to do the in-thing as far as training. A New wage training regime, using the newest techno gadget all are not substitutes for putting in the time and effort of training. I realised in training for Wisconsin, there was no substitute. It was my body that propelled me over the course. My result was the product of my training and focus on getting to the starting line. What I realized too was that these are also the lessons of Coach Dave!

Cold Ride preparing for the Fawn Grove...

2009-01-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

It was cold this weekend! As I have become more active, my desire to get off the trainer and get outside to workout has gone through the roof. Computrainer is great, but doesn't compare to getting out and riding! I planned an hour and 20 minute ride on one of my favorite routes only to fin the forecast changed and rather than being 46 and sunny, it was 30 and snowing. This was not going to deter my riding outside and I got dressed and started out.

As I was riding I began thinking about the 09 season. I am starting the outdoor season in April riding the Fawn Grove Roubaix! A short 27 mile Cat 5 bike race with 7 stretches of packed dirt roads simulating the "cobbles" of Paris-Roubiax. I recall my friend Howard talking about his riding the cobbles of Belgium and thinking this is the closest this will come to a true Euro road race as April weather, dirt, and racing. I am hoping to just survive this race and what a way to begin my bike racing career. I am entering this with only one goal, finish this race and learn. I am entering a few more road races and criteriums, with the goal of competing in the Tour of Lancaster County in August (2 day 3 race Stage race). Learning how to bike race will present its challenges, but it has reinvigorated my training and "forces" me out on a cold snowy Saturday ride.

To the ride, despite being slow and low on the power output, I was just happy to be riding and riding with a renew sense of purpose. I look forward to seeing how this and the Carl Dolan Circuit race will hep me prepare for Columbia Tri and Rhode Island 70.3. Only time and training will tell.

New Year- New Directions

2009-01-15T08:34:00.000-08:00

It has been quite some time since my last post and I feel rejuvenated and ready to tackle 2009! In retrospect, I really needed time away from the blog, racing and even training. I understood the physical impact of Ironman Wisconsin, but came to realize the mental and emotional toll the race took on me. Last year I spent my year focusing on one day. Day in and Day out, the prize was getting to the start line in Madison. After a sub par 2007 Ironman experience, I primed myself to not repeat the mistakes I made in Lake Placid. When all was said and done, I deemed the 2008 Ironman finish a major success. Then it hit me, I was spent emotionally and mentally drained from the balance act maintained during the preparation. After many start and stops in getting more consistent with workouts, I decided to take a break and clear my mind of triathlon. I would keep up with the Triabetes posts, yet didn't post. I distanced myself for a while and took the necessary break from the intensity I typically put into many aspects of my life. I just was for a while, and it was uncomfortable at time, yet freeing. I heard a quote the other day that rings true, is real freedom is the need to not control everything. And, that's what I did and I am truly back in the bike saddle again! My pledge for racing in 2009 is to make triathlon racing fun again, not a means to an end. Enjoy the races I have entered and not be pressured about whether or not I am hitting my targets. For instance, I am racing Columbia in May and not focusing on hammering the swim and bike sections and hanging on in the run for a finish, I will actually approach the triathlon with a tri mindset. Pretty cool for a control freak like me. I look forward to posting more of my thoughts throughout the season with some regularity, yet continuing to remember my goal of having more fun this season. I am hopeful this goal will be met.

Back Again

2008-11-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

It has been almost a month ! A serious bout with site infections and generaly laziness, back on the bike for some work and hitting vasa for some swim practice. Generally, coming back from an extended lay-off is tough and rewardign at the same time. After yesterdays sustained power workouts, it was great to hop on a ride. If all goes well, I will be hitting the road and running again, whcih will be beneficial since Denise and I will be running the Baltimore Marathon next October!

New Goals

2008-10-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

It is October and the wave of returning to reality has finally set in. After dealing with some of life's curve balls, it marks the time to move forward. What is next? I resigned to myself, my family, friends and supporters that racing Ironman is not happening in '09. Last year it was the mind having issues wrapping itself around Ironman, this year it is the mind and body. I hope to return to Ironman racing in the upcoming years, but I feel relieved not having this in next seasons race schedule. So what will '09 bring? I want to represent Triabetes once again during the '09 saeason as I can't think of a better cause and better group of people I want to be associated with!

I lost a step in my run so it is time to get it back this year and hope to get some of it back. Denise has set a goal to run the Baltimore Marathon next October, and I will run it with her. I envision her finishing the race hand in hand with her- with me finishing the Maryland Double. Additionally, I am hoping to run the Frederick Marathon in May as part of the first leg of the Maryland Double. In Triathlon, I set 2 races in my sites a being the "focus", Rhode Island 70.3 and Delaware DiamondMan Half Iron (I owe this race course one from 2004!), along with a few shorter triathlons along the way.

To Be an Ironman x 3- THANK YOU

2008-09-15T12:15:00.000-07:00

Yes, it is over! What a successful week I had the honor of spending with my Triabetes Teammates. Each has provided their personal story inspiration is getting to the start line and beyond. Triabetes did it and the mark has been made on the diabetic community that anything is possible! In sitting back and reflecting, it has been a week since the race and have to return to "real" life. When I got the email and call last year to do Triabetes through now, I am amazed at how our team was able to accomplish some extraordinary results. I thank Michelle, Peter, John, Steve 2.0, Steve 3.0, Bill, Aaron, Joe, Brian, Anne, Dave and Larry for their stories as they will help many out there. A special thanks to Nate for his logistical mind, and Dr. Matt!

Also, I have many in my own support group to thank, but want to single out a few. First to Coach Dave Amato. Coach Dave Amato, who knew how to balance my workout schedule with my ever changing demands of life and diabetes. As an aside, each time I would talk with Coach Dave, he would know exactly what buttons to push to get more out of me and balance a training program to produce results. To Nurse Betty who watch my trainings effects on me and always was there to provide words of encouragement, ibuprofen, and sweets when needed. To my extended family who know the craziness of Ironman and stuck it out yet again. To Donny G and Luke, who without your ear and demented humor, it would have been more of a bear to get through. To my parents and in-laws, who are the constants. To the diabetic community, as I hope Triabetes experience helps someone else know that anything is possible, Lastly and most importantly to Denise, Bri, and Tommy, who are my love and my life. They make it possible for me to do Ironman, test my blood sugar, keep myself as healthy as I can.

A Hero...

2008-08-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

Seven days til Ironman. As I sit recounting the training and upcoming event and recount the dedication my friend Howard does daily. No matter your politics or views on war, Howard risks his life for our country. A country where a diabetic has the freedom to race Ironman. It was a year ago when I reconnected with this extraordinary person who shares a love and passion for his country, not to mention bike racing and riding. I recall our ride in the Fall over my mini-Moo course talking about his adventures in Europe riding with the Germans and their tactics, our paramount rides, and life in general. I am longing for his return to ride again and re-tell of our stories and share in the joy of his safe return to us. Thanks Howard!

My Friend Steve

2008-08-19T06:10:00.001-07:00

19 Day til Ironman! I received an email last week from my best friend Steve Silverman. The best man at my wedding, the man who knew many of my many challenges in life. His words were transformed into action this morning. After having a decent ride Saturday, and great first half of my Sunday long run, I scraped it in for the final 1 1/2 hour on Sunday and felt like crap the remainder of Sunday into Monday. This morning it would have been nice to sleep in and not workout. But resonating in my brain was Steve's words of encouragement as I re-read his email last evening and got up to put in an excellent run, despite having a closing BS of 55, further dropping to 45. As I prepare for this race, it will be 22 years that Steve and I have been friends. Also, along the way, Denise and I will have been together for 20 years. After all this time, the 2 of them have schemed and supported me over the years no matter the adventure, like Steve, after major knee surgery, hobbling around at the 1997 New York City Marathon, chasing me down in the rain. I realise I am pretty fortunate.

Winding Down Big Volume

2008-08-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

Taper is almost here! Big Volume weeks are suck! However, after compelting them, the path to success is partially laid. All of the work leading up to big volume then add 20+ hours of workouts during a 3 to 4 week period adds up to aching joints, tired legs, and many, many cups of coffee to survive the day. Once the final big volume weekend is complete, only small deposits can be made, but I know I can screw things up if not careful during taper. Rest and rest hard is key. Also for me is nailing my nutrition plan during the time as it is easy to eat for 20+ hours of working out but only doing about 12 and the pounds find a way back on. 24 days til the race, but who's counting.....

No- It is the Story.....

2008-08-08T12:40:00.000-07:00

Ironman training is comprised of peaks and valleys! The heavy volume time days we are now in challenge even the toughest physically and mentally. For example, Sunday's long run started well enough but ended 2 1/2 hour in with dehydration and scraping it in for the final hour. But the end result of 20 miles done makes it worth it. As I logged the big volume days in, I find myself wondering what I will be doing after this adventure. In doing the work getting to the start line, I ponder what Ray and Nella our documentary filmers pondered with us, is the story the race? or is it getting to the race? This year I found many answers I have sought while racing Ironman. The Ultimate question of why always comes up. The physical challenge? Did that. Mental Challenge, been there. The Story- yep -that's it. The memories of bonking during my first ride on Darth Velo Jedi Penguin. The good training days and the numerous "bad" days. The lows and highs of blood sugar management, the email correspondences with my Triabetes family. My family's absolute and unconditional love and support for me no matter the outcome. The mornings at 5 am riding running, the trips to the pool pondering jumping in the water, the pain of Vasa, the phone calls and coaching from Coach Dave, the pain after long runs, the saddle sores of 5+ hour rides, wanting to quit but keeping the one goal in mind. During this training year, I was challenged with questions and demons. As I heard in Santa Barbara, it was time to stop wrestling ghosts and the answers to life's eternal questions are becoming much clear this year than in my past 4 years training for Ironman. In the final 9 days of big volume, I and my other Tribetes teammates will put the final touches on our training and converge on Madison. And the stories we will tell!

Iron-mares...

2008-07-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today starts another week of big volume training. With the bike being the focus, Coach Dave has me in a zombie-like state yet gaining the necessary confidence to tow the start line. My Iron-mares (Ironman Nightmares) have begun to haunt my sleep. Questions concerning did I bring the right gear, is that really my bike? (A beach cruiser), running in bare feet, are just some of the nightmares. The reality is I encountered a real-life Iron-nightmare in 2006 at the Great Floridian. The residue of the preparation deficits, my lack of mental focus, my physical issues haunt me as I prepare this year. I scares me and motivates me at the same time. My take home lesson is that no matter how great or poorly I prepare, respecting the distance and race is of vital importance. As I work my way into this weeks training, I am keeping thing into perspective. Only 40 more days til race day, respect the 140.6!

Words from Nurse Betty I want to Share

2008-07-25T12:30:00.001-07:00

Got an email from Nurse Betty this morning and want to post as real good words for us to remember as Triabetes athletes are all out there training. I am not the most religious person, but highly spiritual and found this refreshing to my soul!

From Nurse Betty:

As I was doing my devotion time this morning, it talked about a cyclist who gets dehydrated. Of course I thought of you on your bike in the tri's and intense training. Thought maybe you'd like this too. Have a good weekend if I don't see you this afternoon.

Toward this end, I give you this tool: a prayer for the thirsty heart. Carry it just as a cyclist carries a water bottle. The prayer outlines four essential fluids for soul hydration: God's work, God's energy, his lordship, and his love. You'll find the prayer easy to remember. Just think of the word W-E-L-L.

Lord, I come thirsty. I come to drink, to receive. I receive your work on the cross and in your resurrection. My sins are pardoned, and my death is defeated. I receive your energy. Empowered by your Holy Spirit, I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength. I receive your lordship. I belong to you. Nothing comes to me that hasn't passed through you. And I receive your love. Nothing can separate me from your love.

Don't you need regular sips from God's reservoir? I do. I've offered this prayer in countless situations: stressful meetings, dull days, long drives, demanding trips, character-testing decisions. Many times a day I step to the underground spring of God and receive anew his work for my sin and death, the energy of his Spirit, his lordship, and his love.

Drink with me from his bottomless well. You don't have to live with a dehydrated heart.
Receive Christ's work on the cross,the energy of his Spirit,his lordship over your life,his unending, unfailing love. Drink deeply and often. And out of you will flow rivers of living water

The Big Weeks are Upon us

2008-07-20T15:19:00.000-07:00

Ah, Ironman training kicked into high gear. Despite all the problems of last weekend, this one was a picture of heat, miles, and more heat, yet a good degree of sucess achieved. With the heat index around 100, took my long 4.5 hour ride to my mini-Moo course, the Columbia Triathlon bike course. Rolling hills, farms, and more rolling hills, along with a bunch of cows. This course is demanding, but nothing like Madison and Dane County is going to be. However, rode the course 3 time (75 miles) and began practicing Ironman pacing and riding strategy. Whe I started, there were a number of cyclist riding. The competitive juices begin to flow. Being passed on the initial climb and beginning of the rollers, I jumped on it only to back off knowing I was only 15 minutes into a 4.5 hour ride! Pacing, fueling and hydration was key to todays sucess. After each loop, stopped by the truck and grabbed fresh bottles. It was hot and tough, but finally felt good about a long ride. Then transitioned into a 30 min transition run after. Blood sugar was a bit high to start 285, but settled nicely to 135 staring the run and in the end, 122.

Sunday was a good day as well. Despite being equally as hot as Saturday, I started off the morning with Coach Dave and his Master's Swim group. Getting some stroke refinements and initially feeling like crap in the water. I managed to get some excellent swim practice in. As always, Coach Dave has a tendency to ground me and keep things real and is genuine in his interest in his athletes. Then off to the run. Ran 2.5 hours today on a very challenging trail course. Once again, blood sugar a bit high to star 260, but settled in and ended at 165. I think dehydration played a part in today's highs. Nevertheless, the first long weekend in the bag!

Rage Bolus, Darth Velo- Jedi Penguin

2008-07-14T18:08:00.000-07:00

I know that it is early as on my typical blogging schedule I have been one post per 2 week period. Densie, Bri and Tommy are in Boston visiting Denise's family, more importantly spending time with Denise's mom. That leaves me with time to work, train, and blog.

Saturday was an interesting day. After a week of blood sugar stability, Saturday hit me with a right to the jaw. After dropping Denise and the kids off at the airport, I felt my sugar drop and drop fast. Hit a local McDonalds, very healthy and got some OJ and hotcakes bolused my normal carb to insulin rate, knowing that I would be riding soon. After dropping out at 55, my BS hit 300 and was climbing according to my CGM, crap hit a bolus and a rage one at that not taking into account the ride I chose to do was very challenging. Came home and mounted my new steed, Darth Velo- Jedi Penguin, my new Cervelo P2C. I got the frame earlier in the week and built it, and worked out my fit. I will write more about her in my next blog with pictures of it. So after a small snack, ht the road. At 3 hours 15 minutes in, I hit the wall. As I was on a very fast descent, I began to feel another bad low coming on. My CGM's inner crystal burst for some reason and like a dumb ass, I forgot my glucose meter. A low was coming! A low it was as I struggled weaving off of the road and finally stopping as I had a moment of clarity and began to fuel up. After a few gels, pretzels and shotbloks, clarity came back. I actually lost some time despite being conscious. Scared the crap out of me! At that point I took the path of least resistance to get home. Suspended pump and rode an additional 10 miles slowly, I got in and my sugar was only at 90... Take home lesson is Don't rage bolus when going out on a 3 to 4 hour ride. Don't stray for original plan, meaning when I eat before a long endurance workout, I typically cut back meal bolus to 85% of normal. And, always bring my back up meter One thing is for sure, I learned a valuable lesson, I can be a dumb ass diabetic, and I know my new ride know the way home!

Ironman Isolation

2008-07-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since last post. However, Ironman and life keeps me quite busy. I have been working with some challenges associated with diabetes with extremes both high and low. Working with Dr. Matt to get some sense to what I can be doing different in my management regime and hoping to work this in to my routine.

What really hit me today as I rode my 2 hour ride before work was the notion of Ironman Isolation. I basically train alone, but find this to be an appealing part of the experience. Race day is a social event, however it is the athlete who must push his or her body across the 140.6 miles to the finish. During my ride this morning I reflected on how things on the family front have stabilized, how despite the blood sugar issues I am feeling trained and getting stronger, and what I need to do in the next 60 days to get prepared. As a result, I will be climbing again this Saturday and trying to build some confidence in handling hills!

Training for Ironman

2008-06-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I last posted. After Eagleman, I have settled into my routine of Ironman Prep, more the isolation training phase. During most of my Ironman training sessions I workout alone and begin to move inward taking inventory on how I am adapting to the increased workloads, focus on quality of the workout, and begin identifying trends and devising plans to hurdle those obstacles that arise during racing. After consultation with Coach Dave, we are moving at a nice clip and I believe have a solid training plan for the next few weeks. I am feeling pretty good in the water as many of my workouts now are focused on time spent and quality of the swim as opposed to repeats etc, which are part of the Vasa workouts. On the bike, I feel I have made significant progress over last year. On my long rides, at 3 and 3.5 hours now (50-60miles), I am continuing to use a 23-11 on climbs to continue to build leg strength. On race day, I will be using either 25-12 or 27-12, as I want to keep legs fresh for the marathon. My runs have been of better quality since Eagleman. Typically on my quality day doing intervals, I am pushing much harder within limits and focused on more sustained interval efforts. Long runs have fallen into place nicely as I am able to recover on Mondays and hit it again on Tuesday. This I hope will lead to a more successful marathon experience this September. In the upcoming weeks, I will begin more focused on longer efforts and begin the real work phase of Ironman training.

Eagleman 70.3

2008-06-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

Another one in the books- I appreciate the folks writing about this and realize during this race, there is a lot to be thankful for! While racing, I try to remain focused and keep moving forward. On days like Eagleman 70.3, that was all I was able to do, but thankful that I was able to race. As I have posted before, I keep many of my thoughts to myself, but this experience with our group has allowed me to feel comfortable sharing some of the deepest recess of my feeble mind. On Sunday, as I said my pre-swim prayer, I was thankful to God to allow me to tow the start line and the rest was just icing on the cake. Not to mention that I was honored to have Ray and Mike Hannon from the doc crew to share in this experience.
The Swim was in the Choptank River and the water was "black" as the call it the Blackwater Refuge area. I began my temp bolus at 2 hours prior to the swim, at a basal rate of 70% (.91) my normal rate (1.3). I swam conservatively especially coming back home fighting the current, but felt solid and ready to bike. At 45 minutes a bit off where I would have liked, but nonetheless, satisfactory. Blood Sugar start of swim 210, exit at 180
The Bike was a winding 56 mile traverse through the Blackwater Refuse and surrounding towns. Flat, Fast, windy, and HOT. I kept a conservative pace and fueled according to my plan at 1 hour 30 minutes to start, and every 45 minutes to follow which consisted of mini pretzels followed by Gatorade and Vitalyte depending on the bottle I grabbed. Took in some Clif ShotBloks at mile 35 of the bike as blood sugar began to go below the 120 mark I set to "stay at". The winds hit at mile 30 and varied from 10 to 30mph, but blew in very hot air. Finished respectable and blood sugar was t 135 to finish.
The Run was NOT fun. With freshly blacktopped roads and a heat index over 110, it started ok, as I was keeping a nice pace for the first 4 miles. Between mile 4 and 5, I began feeling the heat effects and began slowing as I felt my brain beginning to boil. I began running for 10 minutes followed by 2 minutes of walking and walking through the aid stations, which were great! At the half way point, I employed Survival Mode. Get to the finish by putting 1 foot in from of the other. Started the final trek with a 5 minute run, if you want to call it that, followed by 2 minutes of walking. At each aid station, I was taking cups of ice and filling the front and back of my jersey with it an pouring ice water over me as I walked slowly through it. My heart rate was effected by the heat as I was not able to bring it below 175 despite walking. I was feeling the effects of dehydration. Of note I suspended my pump at mile 5, as at that point, what I was eating and drinking was not staying down and my Blood sugar was at 100. The final mile approached, and all I could think about is finishing and getting back to Denise, Bri and Tommy. I visualised Bri's priceless smile, Tommy's uplifting laugh, and my wife, well that is nobody's business! And got there!
The aftermath,was interesting as I finished with a blood sugar of 82, pump suspended, and Ray got a good shot of my CGM, only to have the bottom fall out about 5 minutes later where I dropped and went to medical. I typically don't feel too low at 61 and not concerned but this one concerned me as it was gonna be one of those lows. The medical staff was exceptional! Amazingly as Ray and I were talking a random person came up and asked about what softset I was using that could endure the heat and sweat. As she spoke, she pulled her pump out and said, Well, mine just came out and I wondered what would work better." Diabetics are coming out of hiding. What a way to finish a tough day!

The after-aftermath- I was pleasantly surprised to find a congratulatory, "Chop-ped" poster on my door at work. Nurse Betty done it again with her kindness and prayers to help me through another one of those races. As a friend, she constantly asks me about my blood sugar management and keeps me on point with my health and aids me with her spiritual guidance! It is this type of support is what the story is about!

I would race....

2008-05-13T05:47:00.000-07:00

Catharsis- working through an issue and reaching internal homeostasis... Just reached a point where I can finally begin to see clear. My wife prays in hopes of another miracle for her Mom and as I pray for my in-laws for strength and courage that Denise displays daily. Cancer is a nasty disease! As I pray for my cure, I can only add to my prayers a cure for those who suffer from cancer and for my mother-in-law.

As I blogged I found that this senseless exercise his helping me make things clearer. Yet I began wondering what I would do if given a set period to live. How would I spend that time, who would I seek to spend it with, what do I need to resolve? As I sit back, I begin to think of all of my shortcomings and where I need to make amends, what I need to do, and how I need to do it. And realize, that I am working on being a better person, better husband and companion, and a better father. With all that I do (I think I do things adequately), I never seem to satisfy myself with the results and continue reaching for unattainable goals and unrealistic expectations.

I began this season with a singular focus on September, only to find that things aren't that simple. I struggle with the sense of mortality and now know and am beginning to respect. I have begun to realize some dark truths, those things I will never be, what I will never do and conclude- I can only be me? I have begun my pre-race preparation for the annual rite of Spring, the 25th Columbia Tri, my 5th time racing here, and realize that this is part of me, I am a triathlete, When I race I feel alive. I will not win, or even come close to placing in my age group, but I will race. I will race....and I realize if I was given a short time to live, I would race....

I am back...Not that anyone missed me.....

2008-05-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

After a long 2 weeks, Denise convinced me to not give up my quest for another Ironman. Her determination and inspration has refuled my fires and my committment to Triabetes and Ironman quest. Her ability to balance her family and our family's demands are extraordinary.

Perspective?

2008-05-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

Perspective? When faced with the challenges of diabetes, Ironman training, full time career, family, and such it can be very challenging to remain focused. I have found that through the past 4 years of long course triathlon focus that as volume increases, the static in life can easily overtake my ability to keep things in perspective. Unfortunately, there have been times where I have had difficulty letting go of the distractions and focused to many of my limited resources on resolving the unresolvable. This time it is different. As I pondered dropping out of Ironman to be supportive of my wife and her dealing with the challenges her family faces, I was greeted with , "Are you crazy.." Denise will hear nothing of this and challenges me to remain focused and committed to the task at hand. As I sit here writing, I only wish I could have her perspective, her strength! All too often we can be so self absorbed. However as Iam saying, "I am thinking about dropping out of Ironman to be there for you," my wife steps out of her situation to lend her unconditional support for the insanity of Ironman and my committment to this project. Perspective?

Questions...

2008-05-05T09:42:00.000-07:00

Monday, a day off, and I am sitting downstairs and blogging. I was pondering writing about my sudden bs crash trail running yesterday, but decided against it. I have been consumed with many thoughts and questions regarding my birthday and the significance of it blah blah. I am fortunate the company I work for gives us a gift day for birthdays and I took Friday. I found myself riding a challenging bike route pondering a number of questions. As I pedaled, I began thinking about my friend Howard who I reconnected with this summer after 20+ years. I recounted our Fall ride and him talking about how he had to keep himself safe while in the Middle East. Here I was worried about turning 40, while he is in Iraq trying to stay alive, to get back to his wife, to see his son graduate! Thank God for CW3 Howard Pepper. Whether or not we agree with the politics, we do owe a lot to people like him who sacrifice themselves for us. Then I pondered my friend Steve who after 20 years continues to be just a solid, great friend who calls me on my birthday reminding me that I am his elder, by a few months. Then it hit me, my wife Denise is in Boston, along side of her family dealing with some difficult issues and here I was riding my f#@$in bike! In a moment I my mood and outlook on things changed. I got very angry with myself and sad at the same time. I began questioning what is important in life and really haven't got that far. Ironman is what I do not who I am, but it seems to get blurred at times. All that seemed so clear has become even more fuzzy and out of focus. Those that had answers seem to not have any. I was so sure about this September and not so much now. I hope time give me some answers, some clarity, a renewed direction related to triathlon, but I do know I need to be there for her.

Turning 40

2008-04-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

Well it is coming up in 5 days, I turn 40. I am convincing myslef this ain't such a big deal as 40 is the new 30, sounds good in theory but the reality is I will be 40 in 5 days. I have a lot to be thankful for as I approach this milestone. I have a great life! A beautiful and loving wife, 2 exceptional kids and competing in Ironman, what more can I ask for. I reflect on my life with diabetes and wonder, Would I have competed in Marathons, triathlons or even Ironmans without my diagnosis, and realize the way my life was going prior to diagnosis, probably not. Despite the reality I will not be cured, I would not be doing Ironman if it were not for diabetes! So at 40, I can say legitimatly I am living a healthier lifestyle than I was at 30 and much healthier than 20. All in all what more can I expect, I will be 40, is decent health, part of a great cause, and have a great family....more thoughts as the days go by....

Training, Test Taking, and Mangaing

2008-04-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Another rant, another day, and another issue, who cares... Well, I am happy that after 13 years not needing to pass a test, I took and passed a Board Certification exam. In my own Chop-like way, I was quiet and clandestine in my preparation and taking the exam and only let a few know what was happening. I had a real bad experience in bring those into the fold who I thought were a source of good support only to be disappinted. In preparing for a previous Ironman experience, I was a bit more "outgoing" in my prep and really experienced some bad vibes from others around me regarding it. I went into the final phase of training with a less than optimal mindset, and my training suffered which ultimately impacted my race performance. I am taking a leap by blogging my experience as this Ironman experience is so much different that my previous ones. Who knows what the outcome will be, well I am ready for the ride though....

Another Thursday- Another Rant

2008-04-17T05:33:00.000-07:00

Just finishing another non-Thursday workout morning and really enjoyed the rest and waking up a tad later this morning. Anticipation of getting Bri and Tommy off to school and getting ready for another day of work only to be pleasantly interrupted by coming home for Bri's track practice makes the day much more palatable. Up til today, hit 100% of workout plan from Coach Dave notwithstanding the broken toes on my right foot that is causing a bit of discomfort, yet manageable pain. I am thankful to God for giving me the ability yo continue to do this stuff day and day out. Also, I am fortunate that a contact I made about a year ago is allowing Triabetes and IronKidz to be in the Capitol Chapter of JDRF! Thanks Jonathan, a future Triabetes hopeful! Just heard Bri's alarm going off so the sun is really about to shine on today!

Rantings

2008-04-10T05:22:00.000-07:00

Just felt like blogging instead of working out this morning. In keeping with my training, I really began looking at things a bit differently. When all is said and done, it is me who effects the outcome. I am responsible for how I execute training, my nutrition plan, and approach race day. I think all too often I can fall into the trap, "well if I didn't go low or I my blood sugar is too high." I am stupid but not stupid enough to believe there are many intangibles in working with my disease, but there is so much that I can work with to limit those problems. When I DNF'd the Great Floridian, I was the one responsible for my sub-par training, my horrific nutrition plan leading up to race day, my challenges on the bike course and ultimately my 563 blood sugar. Fear of failure and blaming this result on other matters really is a temporary fix, but ultimate responsibility lies on me. I was fortunate to hear a long time well respected member of my community, George Giese, speak last night that resonated with me as he talked about his "senses."
1. Sense of Responsibility- doing the training, following a sound nutrition plan, managing blood sugars as best as possible, understanding my trends, representing Triabetes
2. Sense of Humor- After all it is just a race! Don't take myself so seriously
3. Sense of Pride- Triabetes is a worthy cause, it is a calling.
4. Common Sense- I will do what I can to effect a positive outcome within my God given abilities

This fellow who did this talk gave me my break early in my professional career and set me up for future success. I am deeply indebted to George once again as he has kept me up all night last night re-thinking things in my life, but also give me an opportunity and framework to take on this challenge.

Brandywine Du

2008-04-07T11:50:00.000-07:00

Well it is in the bag! The first multisport raceat the Brandywine Du. Started the day waking up at 120 and feeling like I was dropping. Leaving my home at 4:20 am, I ate my oatmeal, I gave myself 75% of my normal bolus and drove sipping water and coffee on the 2 1/2 hour drive to Coatesville PA. Prior to the race, I switched out my normal road bars to tri bar set up and race it for the first time. I was surprised at how comfortable the new set up was and my propensity to stay in the aerobars longer. Not sure what I will do for Ironman, but at least have some options. The vibration and buzzing of my DexCom reminded me that my initial hunch of racing low was apparent as at 7:50 am before the race, I registered at 60. A quick downing of ClifShot Bloks and I was off for my first run. I felt the previous days 1 hr and 50 minute (33 mile) ride in my legs. I pushed but stayed within my self-prescribed limits. I completed my Pre-Preformance Plan highlighting my desire to race relaxed and paced with taking no risks physically. That said, I plodded along and got to my bike with a less than stellar first run. The bike was cold, windy, and technical with more climbing than I originally thought. The end result was my bike legs came to me at mile 10 and felt good rolling through the final 3 miles. Then the last even less stellar run bookended the day. Oh by the way, a gel and second round of shotbloks, suspending my pump at the start of the bike, and a second gel topped off a end race blood sugar of 72 , I left my DexCom attached to my bike. UGH! All in all, not at all wasted from the race and should have a decent week of training

The best part of the race was seeing Triabetes teammate Brian Foster! He recently moved from PA to upstate NY, where Polar Bears seem to make their home. Unforunately I wasn' t able to connect with him earlier due to cell issues, but caught him in the transition area after the race. He too seemed to be facing lows. I was also forutnate to meet his wife. I met Brian in Madison at sign ups and really am inspired on how he takes running to a higher level. He will be sucessful in this journey and as with all my Triabetes teammates, I will enjoy the results!

The Past Week

2008-03-31T09:11:00.000-07:00

Being back and training smarter, I have done the past week on Base Training mode and been more aware of heart rates. Gone is the glitz and glamour of high heart rates and power numbers, and back on pace are the long slow runs and rides, keeping within the aerobic range. This past weekend, riding a hilly 25 mile bike course and c, I kept my heart rate under the prescribed 155, and trudged up the climbs, sitting and even during my runs over a cross country course, I walked a few time up hills. Overall, it felt like cheating, but I realize that I have been training far too long in the gray zone which has impacted my max heart rate negatively. I hope backing off a bit now will give me a boost latter in training or when LT training begins. The sins of 2006 keep coming back.

Back from Camp

2008-03-25T05:43:00.000-07:00

Back in Maryland after a peaceful but busy week in at DTC in California! I was able to meet a few more of the Triabetes team (Peter, Anne, Bill and Nate) and reconnect with 2 of the Boone boys (Ahn and Dave). A reemergence of my old nickname, "Chopper" and a push up to Painted Cave, were highlights, as also the volumes of knowledge I gained about Diabetes and exercise. I have been using my new found knowledge and excited about seeing the impact on my performance in training, racing and life. All in all I was very happy about the week, but happy to get home to Denise, Bri and Tommy.

Filling Newspaper space

2008-03-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

Here's the link to my 15 seconds of fame: http://www.eldersburgadvocate.com/default.asp?sourceid=&smenu=1&twindow=&mad=&sdetail=2984&wpage=1&skeyword=&sidate=&ccat=&ccatm=&restate=&restatus=&reoption=&retype=&repmin=&repmax=&rebed=&rebath=&subname=&pform=&sc=1323&hn=eldersburgadvocate&he=.com

I appreciated the opportunities the Triabetes project has offered me and being able to work the press to draw attention, albeit large or small, seem important. I was very happy the reporter talked with Michelle and Nate, as this fulfilled my desire for the article to be more about Triabetes than me.

Hitting it again

2008-03-05T07:12:00.000-08:00

I took some time after fighting illness twice within a month and began reemerging into life, I scanned my teammates blogs, and found, wow it really has been a difficult cold & flu season! And found the inspiration to get moving. Unfortunately due to my inactivity I put back some weight and will be reworking my diet and hopefully get things moving again and restarting my already slowing metabolism, a misfortune of turning 40 soon.

Spoke with Coach Dave yesterday, and is always a great conversation and prepared for my next block. What impresses me the most is that Coach Dave is able to take from our conversations and develop a spot on training plan. I think this has been one of the keys to my continued motivation and successes in completing training blocks as the challenge me but fit well with all that is going on around me.

As I restart once again, I am happy with most of my sugar control. Some craziness when sick, but in general been running well within the 100- 180 range. I have had a few extreme highs, but that was stupid carb counting on my behalf. When I have worked out, balance in blood sugar has been much easier. So the point is to keep moving!

In close, I was fortunate enough to get a story about Triabetes in a local community paper. I pointed the reporter in the direction of ID and Michelle and heard from her that she spoke with Michelle and Nate which I feel capture the heart and soul of our team! I am reminded that the purpose is so much larger than one individual, yet owe Michelle a lot for her vision of this adventure!

Friends of Triabetes

2008-02-28T11:09:00.000-08:00

Training still rolls on. I have had some challenging days with blood sugar management as I re-adjust to increase volume training. I have done 2 of my 3 basil checks and emailing them to my endo, and have already decreased my basil by.5 u/ hr. Better management means better workouts and improved recovery, which all adds up in September. In keeping with my goals, I have been working my nutrition plan better and hope to feel the benefits when I begin racing. Recently, I have experienced a resurgence in my cycling albeit indoors and on computrainer. I have also felt decent on my running. Swimming will always lag behind, but I have worked the Vasa and went to the pool yesterday am. I was feeling like a "load" in the water as my shoulders were dead and seemingly the result of Coach Daves Vasa workouts and weight training. All in all, I am excited to get to camp and begin racing. I should finalize my racing schedule soon.

I am also fortunate enough to represent Triabetes at the Dodgin Diabetes Dodgeball tournament this weekend, Sunday. The folks of this event have been gracious in working with InsulinDependence and this will be neat to see. The proceeds from this event go to the Joslin Diabetes Center, connected with University of MD, and where I am a patient. Also, my local community paper is picking up a story about Triabetes and hope to represent well there. As this exposure is good for the team, I am humbled to be the representative. I got into this to make my kids proud that their Dad did something for people with diabetes.

Time Has Past

2008-02-24T07:03:00.000-08:00

It has been awhile since I contributed to my blog. Since being sick, I have restarted training with what I would call my efforts about a grade B. Some struggles, some really good work outs, but overall satisfied with my progression. I do feel ahead of the game as compared to last year, but overall that isn't saying much. Did have a slight hiccup when my Eagleman entry was not showing up and resolved swiftly(within 1 hour after my initial email to them!) by Columbia Triathlon Association who directs the race.

I am excited about camp, as I primarily train alone. I am looking forward to meeting team members who I have had e-contact with and those who I met. Denise says this will be one of the only time she will not be a nervous about me traveling since most everyone is there with the same medical issues! I am looking forward to learning about some of the missing pieces that will enable me to maximize my training and racing with diabetes.

Finally, the multi-sport season is a little over a month away. As I prep for Brandywine Du, I reflect on du is where I started all of this madness. I recall my first du in December, 1998, rainy, cold and just down right miserable. Denise pushing Brianna around in our jogging stroller, and suffering through the day! I remember, the excitement of doing the first run then getting onto my bike, I also remember taking it out way too fast and suffering on the final 2 laps of the bike course (6 laps of a 2 mile course) and the heaviness of my legs on the final run. When it was over I was hooked, but never imagined tarting training for 4 Ironman races, starting 3 and finishing 2. I also never imagined drawing so much attention to our cause of "Anything is Possible- even with diabetes." I am so stoked and going out for my run!

One final new thing, I will be posting in my articles of interest, my workouts and also post Denise;s as she is training for an OLY distance tri in May.

Triathlon- A Family Affair

2008-02-12T07:46:00.000-08:00

After being sick, it really feels great to be back working out again. Even better, I was able to workout with my wife last evening and today. We are racing together at the Columbia Tri in May and will be participating in the Simply Stu Worldwide Triathlon Weekend in March with Bri and Tommy, our 2 kids.

As far as diabetes, the blood-sugar fairies hit me yesterday as I battled highs all day despite changing my soft-set, bolusing, and being good eating-wise as I battled the high 200's (240-280) for much of the day. Sometimes it doesn't make sense, but that is the nature of this beast. I am happy with my progression prior to getting sick as I was making progress in my build period and working my weight down. Also a difference is the addition of 2 to 3 weight/core workouts during the build that has both a physical and psychological effect of feeling strong. Coach Dave had me in the gym last week and worked me with some additional weight/core expercises that will help come September. What is really cool is Denise, my wife, is working a similar weight/ core training and allows us to share even more time together.

Oh it's Nice to be Alive Again

2008-02-07T07:20:00.000-08:00

After a week and a half with crud, and 2 weeks of it creeping up, I finally feel alive again! I am excited to sit upon my trusty steed- the Cervelo and pedal tonight and do a short run to get my dormat cardio system moving once again. Sometimes it doesn't take much to create exciement but this is and can only hope that it is behind me. I am really looking forward to the upcoming build periods as this is the time when fnishing Ironman is essential!

Quick Post

2008-01-31T12:05:00.001-08:00

Haven't posted for a week, with kids ill and getting it myself, not much time has been spent sitting up. In thinking about previous post about depression and the blues, I went back and re-read a summation of viktor Frankl's quotes in Dave Shield's The Tour and try my hand a what I think it means.

Winter Blues- or more?

2008-01-24T03:57:00.001-08:00

Some call it the blues, some call it depression, some even call it seasonal affective disorder, but it feels the same. I just feel it is important for me to provide a quick commentary on this issue. The unfortunate connection between diabetes and depression is out there with no real causal relationship found. That saidwith many of us who experience depression may not seek treatment because this in some perverse way is a sign of weakness. From a book I read in Grad school, A Man's Search for Meaning, by Vicktor Frankl, and recently re-read as it was referenced in Dave Shields's book The Tour, describes suffering as a condition of human existence. One quote that stands out , "To live is to suffer, to survive is to find meaning in the suffering." However, from a closer analysis, I deduce that part of our finding meaning involves reduction of the suffering. Those who have experienced depression understand all to well the suffering. Additionally, depression can follow seasonal patterns. Like many people, you may develop cabin fever during the winter months. Or you may find yourself eating more or sleeping more when the temperature drops and darkness falls earlier. While those are common and normal reactions to the changing seasons, people with seasonal affective disorder (SAD) experience a much more serious reaction when summer shifts to fall and on to winter.
SO, what is the link, no one really knows, here's a quote from the Diabetes Monitor:
Causes underlying the association between depression and diabetes are unclear. Depression
may develop because of stress but also may result from the metabolic effects of diabetes on
the brain. Studies suggest that people with diabetes who have a history of depression are
more likely to develop diabetic complications than those without depression. People who
suffer from both diabetes and depression tend to have higher health care costs in primary
care.
Despite the higher health care costs, the impact is enourmous. As a clincal social worker, I expereinced the impact through my clients. But, personaally, my expreiences with SAD and depression "proper" is a living hell, and needs to be addressed. Treatments include: talk therapy, medication regime, and for SAD, light therapy. What I can say is with proper treatment,it works and the meaning in suffering can be found. So, when you see that the blues are taking longer to kick, please bring this to your endo or your family doc because you don't need or deserve the pain associated with a treatable disease like depression.

Here we Go Again

2008-01-23T13:04:00.000-08:00

Well, I have been battling illness, businees, and the winter blues this week. I have found when things are good, they are really good, but when Bad it gets really bad. After battling a stomach virus, I got back on the bike Saturday and felt "ok" with maintaining a B/S of 150 during the ride with power output averaging about 160 watts, mainly due to the hills of the course I chose. But it was "ok." Sunday's run was a nice hour jaunt with a balmy high of 13 and went into the woods to get out of the wind. Used my Polar to track speed and mileage and was ok with 5.97 miles at 1 hr 2 minutes total run time. Off on Monday and Tuesday was a heavy work and travel day that forced me to take off. SO I am back on schedule and hopefully making some ground in fitness. My swim today was a nice endurace "challenge" as I have not been in the water much but working a bunch on the Vasa, and swam for 30 minute. Despite not being a "fish" today was the best I felt in the water since Iroman Arizona training in 2005. Tonight holds, daughter's basketball practice (me missing all of my shots) and a 50 minute bike after everyone goes to bed then tomorrow.... It is Ironman! I hope to blog tomorrow and talk about winter blues a bit.

Back Again

2008-01-19T12:06:00.000-08:00

What a challengin week. Sick for 2 days, and out of it for the rest. A stomach bug hit my household and we were down for the count! It was 2 on and 2 off and back at it today with an easy course for 90 minutes rolling. Will run outside as usual ans see how I respond today. Nothing much more to report so I will muse again on Monday!

Monday Musings- Podcasts

2008-01-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

What was working out like before the Sony Walkman? Well I can remember this as I was cutting weight for wrestling and running miles on miles bundled up to lose that last bit of weight! Can you say boring? The the Walkman came out, that huge bulky tape player that made those runs a bit more manageable, but also got a nice upper body workout carrying that thing. Fast Forward to now, we have mp3 players. And I have moved into the 2008's as I found podcasts. Typically I used my mp3 player to carry my favorite power songs to help me through a workout, but this year I have been doing things differently. I began listening to podcasts I have been listening to these on my computer and sometime downloaded them to a CD and listen in my car, but running or on the bike trainer, no way. I was even on a podcast a few years ago, EndurancePlanet, September 15, 2005, but never thought to download and workout while listening. But that all changed, I began downloading my favorites, Simply Stu (from Madison area ) and the Extra Mile Podcast, and Endurance Planet (not so much recently). What I found in listening that not only do podcast talk about the sports I love, but they are like me! I love the Extra Mile's updates as the runners talk about their running, times, struggles, life and I can totally relate. Yesterday in particular, I was listening to a contribution on the Extra Mile of a fellow in Sweden who was running at paces I can relate to. Before I knew it I made the turnaround fop my run and was back at my front door step. Pretty cool!

Training

2008-01-13T07:29:00.000-08:00

Finished another training block and week! It has been a busy and week of redeveloping routines, workouts, work, family and sleep. Unfortunately, sleep gets short changed. I felt strong but tired this week as strength training and workouts are doing their job. B/S ranged from 220- 100 during workouts and Dr. Matt's advice seems to be working as I have begun setting my temp basil rate 60 to 90 minutes before workouts and have increase the amount of insulin of the basil from 50% to 70%. Tweaks like this seem to be helping with recovery,or it is my imagination. Whatever it is, it is working. Got to ride outside yesterday and tried riding a "new" 14.2 mile course with some challenging climbs. Spout Hill is a .5 mile climb that average 6.33 % slope, maxing at 14%. I am setting this course as a benchmark for this season as it has a nice profile of rolling hills, flats, and can be a challenge. First report is 177.7 average watts, max at 494, time 55 minutes, average speed 15.3. Not great but I was happy with the average power output. As it is reported widely, can't fool power training. I will be testing on a longer course (36 miles) in March.

I am using the iBike wireless with the updated iBike 2 analysis software. I am a techno-junkie and was drawn to the iBike as there are continued developments and it is half the cost of other power meters. There are many knocks against the iBike, but recently the developers have done a great job of resolving many of the power spike and inaccurate reading the meter has. Also, with each new advent of software (firmware) is a simple download and not needing to buy a new one. In my use, I have found the power readings on iBike and Computrainer have been within 2 to 4 % of each on the same course. I can live with that!

A Moment

2008-01-08T07:56:00.001-08:00

As I sat around this morning after working out, I decided to check out the Triabetes Google group discussion pages to see what is happening (http://groups.google.com/group/race_with_triabetes?hl=en ) and saw the official program of the project. Thought to myself wow, despite my age being younger than I am I was really hit emotionally. This is really happening! I am so humbled to be surrounded by my teammates as they are all extraordinary people! I began questioning my worthiness of such an honor. I am a fortunate person on so many levels and at times can take the goodness that I experience for granted. As I read the bio's, I was very inspired to do what is necessary to get to the start in September. I served as a reminder that lives already have been touched and transformed! Then it hit me, my daughter, Brianna, wants to race an Ironman with me. Those close to me know I love my kids more than anything, yet I continue to question myself whether I am a good father. Then it sunk in as it seems that my baby girl is inspired by her Dad.

Feels like Spring in January

2008-01-07T10:45:00.000-08:00

Well, in my area it is Spring in January! We have 65 degrees sunny and no wind! Too bad today is an off day so to speak. I have used Mondays, my day off from training, to get an extra swim in of about 1k with focus on stroke and technique. Nothing hard except trying to stay afloat. In looking back on the past week, it was good to get to structured workouts and seeing in the progressive weeks of building. In my bike workouts I felt really good with averaging 150 watts per ride, with my BS staying at 145 average on both rides. Running was good this week as kept my heart rate at 155 to 165. My long run yesterday felt really good as it was very, very nice out, 50 degrees. I listen to my last Christmas time podcast during the run and reflected on just how fun my house was with my kids during Christmas time! This time of joy and elation will pass as I know the Spring like weather will pass and the snow and cold weather will be back, but not until after tomorrow's run.

The Weekends

2008-01-05T06:35:00.000-08:00

The official build period has begun. Looking at the workout schedule Coach Dave has prepared, we are in it now. I swam twice this week and lived to tell about it (new goggles work). Vasa's twice so actually got 4 swim specific workouts done. Rode twice, once with a brick (45 min B, 30 min R) and about to do my 3rd bike today. Ran 3 times. I will also do weight for a 2nd time this week. Right now everything is balanced. I have a feeling that nothing extraordinary or exciting will be going the next 3 weeks so back to the grind.

Winfield Mile- 2008 Season Begins

2008-01-02T07:10:00.000-08:00

We made it a family affair at the annual Winfield Mile race. This marks the beginning of a New Year and comes with the anticipation of good season results. This year the whole Chop family ran. Denise and Bri ran just ahead of Tommy and me as Tommy out sprinted Dad in the final 50 meters. I enjoyed this race more than ever this year. While at the start line, my wife and I were asked about our t-shirts, by a father of twins who have been diagnosed with t-1, and what is Triabetes? We explained what we are doing how she supports me as a t-1'er and how I train and race endurance sports. This fellow introduced us to his son who was diagnosed a year ago with t-1 and was racing as well. After the race we chatted a bit, with me sharing my trials and tribulations of racing with diabetes and my finishing 2 Ironmans. During the conversation, I noticed the father's facial expression and the sense of "relief" he seemed to experience in knowing that if his son and daughter wanted to do something crazy like Ironman that it is possible to do with diabetes. What occurred to me, after we left the race, is that I would not have this type of conversation if I was not connected to the Triabetes cause! Wow, just by wearing our team shirt and this starting a conversation that seemed to help this father. A pretty good start to 2008!

Bye Bye 2007 - Hello 2008

2007-12-31T06:19:00.000-08:00

It is finally the end of another year! I look back and reflect. In retrospect, it was an interesting year where personal/ professional stuff overshadowed athletics. I use the analogy of having a number of curve balls thrown at me on the personal/ professional side that at times distracted me from my training. Most pronounced was the challenges I faced in June while in my final build phase of Ironman training. Some people really don't get it on how being on a bike for 5 hours running for 3 hours and the solitude of training is fulfilling. While most of my supporters were very understanding and encouraging, some just don't get it. This effected me as I was presented with an issue of how training impacts the time spent with my family, my work, and my life. I found during my final preparation, I am typically more strong minded, I slipped and doubted myself at the worst time. In training for Ironman, I often wake up at 4 am to complete my workouts during the week and long days during the weekend I often finished by noon. Was my training for Ironman effecting those things that are meaningful in life like family and work? Ironman is a race that requires balance and full commitment. Not the 90-95% I felt I was going in to Lake Placid. I have concluded that some people just don't get it! That is going to be ok. I am looking so forward to 2008. This is a significant year to me- I turn 40, I am racing Ironman again, and I am part of Triabetes. My family gets it, and I will be able to share in the experience with my Triabetes teammates! As I am sure that as we prepare for Wisconsin, we all will get it!

Today's Ride

2007-12-29T13:21:00.000-08:00

Well the mercury hit 45 degrees and out I went. Did a 25 mile ride with 3 sustained 4-5% grade climbs early and 2 significant climbs hitting 13-16% grade. Starting BS of 165, temp basil set at 50% (.65) of 1.3 u/ hr. Started the ride and felt OK but hit some good spots during the early climbs, checked bs at 5 miles as felt I was going down (CGM's are great on the bike) and saw my graph going down fast (89), ate some pretzel sticks approximately 60 g of carbs at that check (after the climb). Saw my BS stabilize for much of the ride between 100 and 111. Hit the hard climbs and was fatigued and struggled but worked through it. At one point during the penultimate climb where the grade hit 16% and the wind gusting across the bare corn field, I couldn't help but savor the moment. In moments like this riding and suffering, I felt in my element. I talked about this with Coach Dave describing these moments with great "pleasure." Ironman hurts, but hurts good! Finished the ride dreaming about my recovery bars and energy drink and checked the CGM. I was at 69! Ate a couple of glucose tabs and brought it home. Looked at my numbers, 163 watts, 1hr 32 minutes, winds gusting between 15 to 30 mph. Not too bad I thought. Tomorrow's run will be very early as me and my son are going to the Pittsburgh Steelers game in Baltimore!

Today is a Gift

2007-12-28T17:34:00.000-08:00

As the struggles of Post Christmas blues take hold, it really is a gift of today. I look back on what really stinks about my situation and reframe it. I can run, which I did today in the rain... B/S start 131 end 79 with a shot of Hammer gel at 30 minutes. I can bike, which I did yesterday, starting B/S 225, basil at 55% , Gatorade water mix, and ending B/S 123 after 22 hilly miles (1hr 17 minutes at average 141 watts). I swim sometimes ( got new goggles). I will race Ironman again.. It really ain't so bad. Thanks Steve Ahn for your previous comment!

Why am I doing this?

2007-12-26T17:33:00.000-08:00

I was going to post something witty but really have no energy to do so. I swam and rode with no real punch, but it gave me time to think. In my mind I recounted the year. I thought about the Triabetes project and checked my reasons for wanting to be involved. I needed only to look at some comments my team members left on my tough day post. Thanks Michelle and Ann, you words really helped.

For years I trained and raced in isolation as I am not a real social person. I tended to keep my diabetes silent but loved the competition. I guess I wanted to be a voice but didn't know how. As I rode, I kept thinking to myself, racing Ironman, doing a documentary is really secondary to the legacy this team will leave. After the final finsher's medal is awarded, the chronicle of this experience will live on. I probably go overboard about my children, they are worth it, but I look back on the possible impact our project will have and settle in to think that someday my children will be proud of this. Also this will give hope to those parents who worry about their newly diagnosed diabetic child future. That is something I can get stoked for, as my energy level kicked up for the final part of the ride!

Tough Days

2007-12-24T07:35:00.000-08:00

Despite having some good days when it gets tough it gets tough. Saturday night had one of those nights where the blood sugar fairies pushed it to the limits of the low's. We had our annual Christmas party and I ate and bolus'd what I thought wisely until about 11:30 pm. That's when it felt like the bottom fell out and I began feeling like I was going to pass out. I am fortunate my wife doesn't panic and we began testing and I dropped into the 30's and still dropping according to her. I was out of it but responsive to her and drank oj and ate a bunch of carbs to bring me up. The next "moment" I remember was about 12:50 am and began to shake the low off. Yuk part of diabetes. In looking back, I ran before the party along with my increased activity level at our party (playing with the kids and numerous games of air hockey, etc), and my trying to be responsible probably was my downfall as I didn't take into account the rebound effect exercise has on blood sugar, and I got "caught." Felt terribly drained Sunday and was worthless the whole day. I appreciated that e are not in full training tilt and decided to take a day off from training. Today is much better and will get on the bike for a few hours today. As I said before just when you think you got a handle on Diabetes, it comes back to keep you honest and keeps things interesting.

More '08 Musings

2007-12-20T06:18:00.001-08:00

Met with Coach Dave yesterday. It is always good to see him and talk to him as he has a great way to keep everything in perspective. We discussed the '08 season and training for Ironman again. Sometimes I go back and wonder what it would be like again not knowing what is ahead of me, but our plan is solid. Last season, I felt was successful in may regards, more about this next week when I post 2007 in review. Two areas that I am working on is getting my body weight in check and improving my strength. I will be doing a consult with Coach Dave next week to re-structure my strength training routine. With body weight, being close to 40, metabolism seems to "stopped" and I am targeting my race weight at a more reasonable 178 as opposed to my 184 at Lake Placid. Additionally, I will be getting into the pool (ugh) but working on some improving my swim technique with Coach Dave. I am hoping to be at 1 hr 25 minutes come September 7th., but more importantly trying to come out of the water feeling good. We also discussed my nutrition plan and more importantly my recovery nutrition plan after workouts and the diabetes aspect of this. What is a challenge is when exercising especially in long endurance sessions, the liver excretes glycogen, thus post-exercise highs I have experience. I am taking this information to my endo and educator to see what if anything I can do to mitigated this issue. Anyway the next 2 months will be a build, technique, and strength block.

2007-12-20T06:18:00.000-08:00

Water-less Swimming & '08 Musings

2007-12-18T05:44:00.000-08:00

As I noted in an earlier post, the off-season is "officially" over and the work is beginning or at least my mindset has changed to a more focused approach to workouts developed by Coach Dave. I began with my "first" 5:30 am workout in a long time where I was on the Vasa and did core exercises in between Vasa sets. Started with a BS of 140! I have been a good diabetic or at least my blood sugars have in a good range all week. I finished the workout with a good tired feeling, not to mention beginning to waking up earlier than I have been accustomed to during the off season, but it felt good to start the day this way.

Tomorrow I will be meeting with Coach Dave and laying out my plan. I will be reviewing with him my proposed 08 race schedule with some interesting changes and twists. I recieved an email from Inside-Out Sports in NC, and found there is a Long Course Du in Cary, NC on March 22 (8kR-53kB, 8kR). I am contemplating not running a half marathon around that time and making the trek down South for the race to visit my good friend Howard, who I will post about later. He and his wife live in Sanford about 40 minutesd from the race site It is my hope to see him before he deploys to Iraq. Last year I ran a Long Course Du in Richmond at the beginning of April and felt it was a great way to start the season. This race will be a good fitness test for my Eagleman 70.3 prep as well.

Swim, Bike, Run Weekend

2007-12-16T06:18:00.000-08:00

Well, this weekend I did all 3 sports, kind of. For the swim I am fortunate to have a Vasa Ergometer, swimming treadmill. This way I am not bound by pool schedules and can simulate transitions. I did a 15 minute Vasa workout with a 60 minute bike ride. It felt like a tri transition without the water. On the bike I did a simulate course of South Mountain, just outside of Gettysburg. I struggled climbing on this course but sweat through it. Still a lot of work to be done! Today is a run day, weather is crappy (rainy) but I will still try to get outside as I really want to wait for really bad weather to get on the treadmill.

Ran trails today in the rain. Nice and muddy which challenged me to keep good running form and work on short strides and cadence. Started with BS of 150, a bit better than last weeks 310. I found my stride at about 30 minutes in and ran for an hour. During my run, I began visualizing how I want to approach runs in 2008. My plantar is settling and I hope to continue running with minimal pain. Only time will tell.

Back in the Saddle

2007-12-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

Well Getting better was a good thing and rode 60 minutes yesterday. I kept my ride in zone 1 (hear rate no greater than 70% of my max), and although I didn't feel as though I was working, I was. In running LSD (long slow distance) is common, and it suggests there is not the need to bust -a- gut workout everytime out. Part of the trouble we face is really understanding the importance of intensity and varying those intensites as we prepare. This was a lesson I learned and is supported by Coach Dave in our planning and prep for the tri season. This weekend marks our "official" end of the off season as my wife begins her work towards the Columbia Tri, a Spring Classic Olympic Distance race in the Mid-Atlantic. Last season she was able to go under 3 hours and 10 minutes (3.08) This season we will be breaking the 3 hour mark! She provides a great deal of inspiration to me!

Under the Weather

2007-12-11T12:27:00.000-08:00

One bad thing about running in the cold rain is the potential for getting sick. And I did! Took Monday and half of a day Tuesday to shake this bugger. When ill I go back to one of my early coach's (Bob Miteria) remedies- college broth, low aerobic-end work, and rest. It worked when I got really sick a month and a half before Ironman Arizona. Also, as a diabetic, we tend to have compromised immune systems so it is a double whammy and more reason to work harder to get better because a cold has the potential to put us down longer. Fluids and monitoring blood sugar (200 now) and more fluids, followed by monitoring blood sugar! Off to do weights and a 30 minute run on the dreaded treadmill and get that blood sugar down to 150!

"High" ho "High" ho off to Work I go...

2007-12-09T16:55:00.000-08:00

Started today with High Blood Sugar (BS) of 310, just don't tell my endo! Did a 45 min run and barely made 4.7 miles :( Felt horrible on the home part of the run (an out and back), did I mention it was cold, windy and rainy... yuk kind of work out day. I finished with a BS of 190 (Temp Basil cut to 50% of my 1.3 units per hour on pump). I keep in mind a thousand reasons to not run, but 1 to do it..and that is IRONMAN! Plantar is acting up and back into the night splint to stretch it tonight. Despite today's crappy feeling, I feel good about this weekends workouts (bike and Vasa Saturday and run today). Added an article on 12 steps on ramping down from the season the "Articles of Interest" for those who stumble on this. By the way, only 272 days until race day in Madison.

What an Opportunity!

2007-12-08T12:55:00.000-08:00

I have a great opportunity, not only do I get to coach my son and daughter's basketball teams, but I have a chance to make it right for a young athlete! I have the opportunity to NOT do what Brian, a Triabetes teammate, had done to him when the Track coach discouraged him from running because he had diabetes! I can encourage a beginning athlete to use diabetes as an opportunity rather than an obstacle and share in our belief that Anything is Possible with diabetes! What an inspiration for todays workout!

It is about the Week not the Day....

2007-12-07T16:58:00.000-08:00

Got an email from Charmichael Training systems that said during the holidays look at a week of training not days. Take home lesson...If training for a September Ironman look at staying active but not be too concerned about missing workouts due to other holiday obligations. Not true for those training for April Ironman.

Did some more of Dane County Loop. Has some challenging parts and has me wondering about gearing for Ironman. Typically run a 12-25, but changed to a 12-27 for Lake Placid due to the topography. It is early and will consult those who have done the course about best gearing options. My thoughts is I will train both and see where my legs are, Coach Dave will have something to say about that also. After biking did an vasa erg workout about 900 m (40 second intervals) on a moderately hard setting, excellent work but I have a lot to work on in the swim!

Triabetes

2007-12-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

Wow, triabetes! As I am working out this project is alwasy finds its way into my brain. Before I got involved with venure, I always trained and raced in isolation. I would talk about racing with diabetes as folks at the transition racks would ask what that, pointing to my insulin pump, was for in the race. Now, we can tell a story. How cool is the finish line photo going to be with the team!

Trianing continues to be less structured. In 2006, I trained and peaked too early and was toast fot the Great Floridian. So, Coach Dave and I are planning the season around 2 A races, Eagleman and IM Wisconsin. Along the way, some B-races will be good tests to see where IM training is going. In years past, I like to do some road races in the winter and early spring, but may decide to bypass again this year with my plantar problem and pain finally discipating. So with that said...

Swim- What pool? I haven't been in the pool since October, but have been working out ont he Vasa Ergometer, a swim treadmill, and doign about 1 to 2k per week. My thoughts, paired with Coach Dave is to build functional strength now and the erg helps with that. I hope to be back in the pool soon, or maybe not

Bike- I am fortunate that my wife is a tri-geek too so we treated ourselves a few years ago to Computrainer. I have ridden Ironman Wisconsin a few times already and have the 2 loops through Dane County as my target courses now. Also doing a bit of ATB'ing and feeling that my endurance is low, but leg strenght is building with ATB'ong, not to mention is is fun.

Run-Doing 2 runs per week and will incorporate some bricks come January. SLD (Slow Long Distance) on Sundays keeping heart rate under 155. Attempting to teach my body to burn my excess fat. The weekday run is about 45 minutes same type of pace.

Overall- Keeping body moving and that's my primary goal. Moving toward 40 and racing Iroman again, can't let thing be on shut down mode for too long. It snowed yesterday and hope it stays around to do some X-Country Skiing.

Off-Season and Strength Training

2007-12-04T05:44:00.000-08:00

Man, Coach Dave has really challenging job- holding me back early in the process, and motivating me later in training. I am fortunate as I am working with Dave Amato a seasoned bike racer, triathlete and coach through Training Tempered. He and I have been working together for the past year with him bringing sense and balance to my training program.

I love December- February off season work as it allows me to get back to weight training (hopefully not weight gaining) I used to love when I wrestled in college. When I Coach Dave developed my strength training plan, it was different in that it is a functional program that targets the muscle groups used in triathlon. Also during this time I am able to do some mountain biking for my bike workouts and trail running. These are great strength builders and changes the pace, figuratively and literally. I typically trail run through the season as it helps my knees and joints recover from the pounding and the hill work will build strength to challenge the Madison run course. As far as the swim, I have been working about 1k, 2 times per week on the vasa erg, I haven't been near the pool since October. More on this later.

Lake Placid Memories

2007-12-03T09:07:00.000-08:00

In starting for Wisconsin, this helped me get my workout in yesterday. There is nothing like crossing the line with my kids!

The Start

2007-12-01T17:32:00.001-08:00

Today is a great day to start blogging! It has been almost 2 months since starting this adventure and wow, before we know it it will be time to race. I have begun planning the 08 season with the idea that if going 140.6 miles on September 7th. Along the way there is quite a bit of work that goes into it. Sometimes I wonder if not knowing what ahead is better than knowing and experiencing. Anyway, I am fortunate to have a family who gets into the Ironman experience. Started the blogging after my Computrainer ride of 20 miles of the 2 loops in Dane County of the IM Wisconsin Course. Love the course already. More soon....